A Scene from Washington
“Look yonder at those poor fellows. I cannot bear it. This suffering, this loss of life is dreadful.” President Lincoln said these words, capping them off with a heavy sight, as he rode past a long line of ambulances that carried wounded soldiers to a hospital in Washington D.C.
His friend, Representative Isaac N. Arnold, who was riding with him that day found no adequate words. After a beat of silence, he could only agree with Lincoln. “It is dreadful,” he said, lamely. Lincoln did not reproach him for his lack of eloquence, only nodding sadly before looking over at the ruins of another building. It had been burned down by the Confederates in the first battle of the war, and now the returning civilians were trying their best to pick up the pieces, building new edifices or trying to savage the ruins of others.
“Ah, that was the boardinghouse of Mrs. Sprigg. I resided there with Mary and my boys when I first came to Washington. Back then I was a representative, a Whig. We were only Whigs at that house. I think some called it the ‘Abolition House’ since, you know Arnold, none of us liked slavery that much,” Lincoln said in almost fond reminiscence as they passed a lot where a school was being built. Then he turned sad again. “Mrs. Sprigg is now in the North with her husband. They are Virginians, but loyal ones. I hope she benefitted from the compensation given by Congress to the loyal people of Washington, but that will never bring back the boardinghouse.” Lincoln shook his head then, mournfully. “Back then I never thought I’d see Southerners beating men with a cane, burning these houses, and then pointing guns at me.”
Lincoln and Arnold then finally reached the hospital. As was the current protocol, ever since the assassination attempt, they had to wait until the soldiers that had come with them got off and looked around for threats. Until then Arnold and Lincoln waited, the President grumbling that “I do not know what they think having these fellows following me is good for, Arnold.”
“Someone may attempt to take your life, Mr. President,” answered Arnold patiently.
“You know that doesn’t scare me, Arnold.”
“I know, and that’s why we need them. You’re too brave for your own good sometimes,” Arnold said, and then gave Lincoln a half-smile. “I hear the prints of you hitting the rebel Booth sell very well.”
Lincoln sighed. “Those awful things?”
“The proceeds go to the widows of Union soldiers, sir.”
“Very well, then,” Lincoln said, looking out of the window. The soldiers were looking anxiously around, but Lincoln could only see tired nurses and wounded men around. Finally, they signaled they could get off, but two soldiers still followed Lincoln to the hospital’s entrance.
“Boys, may I ask you to leave me to see your comrades?” Lincoln asked. The soldiers, two young ones, seemed to hesitate. Lincoln tried to make a joke then. “If you worry for me, give me a log and I promise I’ll defend myself like last time.”
The two youths laughed. “Of course sir. But we have to stay at the door,” one said.
“Yes, sir. If any rebel appears, we will give our lives for you and the Union,” the other added.
A shadow of melancholy passed over Lincoln’s eyes, and he put his hand on the youth’s shoulder, in a fatherly way. “I do not wish for you to give your life for me, my dear young man. What would your mother say? The thanks of the Republic would never assuage such pain.”
Without waiting for an answer, Lincoln entered the hospital and spent hours greeting and chatting with each convalescent soldier. This was something Lincoln did often, even though Mary worried that visiting the soldiers “although a labor of love, to him, fatigued him very much.” But Lincoln kept at it for over five hours. He stopped at the bedside of a delirious soldier, who asked Lincoln to write a letter to his mother.
“Certainly,” the President said, taking a pencil and paper. After a few minutes of dictation, the patient finally took a good look at his aide and gasped.
“Are you really the President?” the soldier asked in amazement.
Lincoln nodded, smiling at the soldier, who would never forget how Lincoln’s “homely face became absolutely beautiful as it beamed with love and sympathy.” Lincoln then insisted they finish writing the letter before moving to another bed.
Near the Union soldiers, wounded Confederates were also receiving care. Not bothering to tell his hapless guards, Lincoln entered the wing too, and exchanged pleasantries and shook hands too.
“Why, Mr. Lincoln. Come here to hit us with logs?” asked defiantly one of the men.
Lincoln chuckled. “Oh, I don’t think it’ll be necessary, my dear fellow. If you promise to lay the arms away, I will promise to lay the log away too.”
In spite of himself, one of the corners of the soldier’s lips twitched. “In that case, Mr. Lincoln, I’ll apply for a pardon. The food is better here, but I have to say I like our women better.”
“Consider yourself pardoned,” Lincoln said, shaking his hand, and then adding “I married a Southern lady, you know, so I appreciate their charms too.” He then moved to another bed, and said good-naturedly “My dear young man, how are the nurses treating you?”
After some hours more, Lincoln exited the hospital and reunited with Arnold. They travelled a few minutes in silence, before Lincoln started to talk, softly.
“You know, Arnold, once I travelled to the camps when General Hooker was in charge. It was a splendid visit, the boys were happy to see me. Or I hope so at least! Mary said some called me a scarecrow but that’s alright,” the President said with a laugh, “I know I am not the most gallant horse-rider.”
Lincoln looked down at his lap, where he was massaging his sore right hand. “Lamon was with me. So many men had died in the Peninsula, it was dreadful. I couldn’t help weeping, so Lamon tried to cheer me up with a little sad song.” The President’s voice shook, and he had to take a deep breath. “I did not want Lamon to give his life for me, Arnold. He said my life was more important, but I couldn’t leave him or the others. Everybody says they died for me, but I don’t like that. Their life was as precious to them and their loved ones, as mine is to me and my loved ones.”
Arnold, again, was at a lost for words. Instead of any bumbling reply, he reached out for Lincoln’s hand and grasped it gently. Lincoln took another breath and continued.
“I do not like this war, Arnold. What’s the use of all this bloodletting, I ask myself. They call me the widow-maker, you know? What right do I have to ask the women of the country for their husbands and sons? I know that the Northern boys are as dear to their mothers and fathers as my boys are to me and Mary.” Lincoln paused again, raising a hand against his face. “But then I think of all the colored women who have had their children sold, children who are as dear to them as our children are to us. I couldn’t live with myself if I allowed that to continue.”
Lincoln turned to look Arnold on the eye, his face full of sorrow but also decided. “I once resolved that those who had fallen shall not have died in vain. I owe it to Lamon, Reynolds, Lyon, and all the other brave Northern men. I do not like to think that they all died for me, but for something greater than all of us. I owe it to them to see things through.”
Before Arnold could formulate a response, the carriage was stopped, and a breathless young man appeared at Lincoln’s window. “Mr. President! Mr. President!” he cried.
“What is it, my dear boy? What’s the matter?” Lincoln asked, alarmed.
“It’s big news, sir. From the South,” the anxious youth said, taking a moment to gather his bearings. “It’s about John Breckinridge.”